i was trapped in a dark abyss. shadows and light blurred together in one chaotic storm, while a feeling of terror stemmed from deep inside my chest, slowly wrapping its icy fingers around my throat. i couldn’t breathe. i couldn’t think.

i wanted to escape from my world so badly it was almost comforting to be in that hole, surrounded by black nothingness and unrelenting fear, because there, at least my thoughts left me alone.

my fall marked the moment from which i’m not sure if i will ever return. i woke up shaking, trembling, my body in agonizing pain, my face drenched in tears, as i realized how far gone i was. and so i let myself fall deeper and deeper, succumbing to the voices in my head, drowning in their screams.