ladybug trilogy
ladybug pimples
i can feel your fingers tug at my sleeve
i can hear your keys jingle when you’re ‘bout to leave
do you care to look up from your work
and call me your distraction for as long as you please?
i know your ego is getting bloated
from all the little words i feed you at night
and i know that you’re not worth it
you can call me your distraction every night of your life
compassion is a color i will never wear
your face
your body
your nose
your hair
my feet stay gliding through the tunnel of boredom
my eyes
my lips
i wish
i cared
how do you feel that your names in the bible?
honeybee, won’t you follow me and be my disciple?
i’ll pour my nectar in your morning tea
you belong in the dust but i don’t want you to be unhappy
i pretend like the play’s so simple
pray for makeup to disguise my ladybug pimples
rain drops dive into your pores
i’m the beetle in your bedroom that’s so hard to ignore
my classmate keeps a list of everything you’ve done
your fight for the white army and my fight for the sun
nobody has won
valentine’s day
someone threw the roses out the window
did you see ‘em?
were you there?
night terrors of dying as a widow
i wish i didn’t care
i don’t wanna fight with you
i wanna make a bed in your hand
let’s sleep in our lavender patch
you forgot your keys
but i felt you standing at my door
the roses don’t breathe anymore
loading showers
loading wells for both my eyes
holding powers
we couldn’t handle if we tried
if i’m angry i could slide into your arms
but i never got a chance to be in them
when i wake up i could stretch into your eyes
but i never got a chance to see with them
360 degrees, full circle
no more distractions
no more distractions
you drained the red out of my purple
welcome compassion
no more distractions
loading showers
and screenshots of you in your tie
over the hours
i found another layer of i
birthday cake tea
as my mind
changes
i take a sip
of my birthday cake tea
as my body
changes
i take a trip
to ladybug sea
my domain
has a tower
standing hexillion feet high
i love to boast because i lived to climb
the staircase i built
out of thin ink and guilt
i stand loose and still
and beam down at the moon
your false devotion
to the god of your choice
antagonist i could be if i still have a voice
i see black tank tops
like diamonds ruby, cerulean and green
i live at the table
but i’m living the dream
acne king
the queen is dead
poisoned words still left unsaid
i wanted a shake on such a warm night
in search of sweet milk came cardboard and ice
i could inhale a skyscraper at first sight
wash away the insects on the wall and the needles in the mirror
i wore lipstick and looked like a minor note scale
my world has one baby and she’ll need me there
when mars comes in springtime
and the sun comes in snow
your god complex will take it’s time to come and go
my sun went and took the medal
my tribe is unmatched
you rigged all your chances but you’re still a catch
your aura’s a thick jelly but my heart’s on the sleeve
of my vintage denim jacket that you never got to see
it’s funny how i felt a need to keep you around
if i’m a distraction i’ll have fun dragging you down